Wednesday, November 17, 2010


Isaiah 65:24 
 I will answer them before they even call to me. While they are still talking about their needs, I will go ahead and answer their prayers!
Doesn't it just give you goosebumps!

Saturday, November 13, 2010


So I just finished reading John. I have thoroughly enjoyed every moment of it! Though it seems whenever I sit down to read that the kids will come up and whinge and whine at me to do something or other. That has been driving me crazy.

Next? Who knows. I am still praying, but I suspect it will be another gospel. I feel I need to learn more about the Holy Spirit since I grew up in a Bretheren church  (no, not those weird exclusives..) when practically no attention was given to the Holy Spirit for fear of turning into one of those frowned-upon charismatic types. So I will be heading to Acts soon, but I think I need to get more Gospel into me first. Surround myself with as much Jesus as I can.

Did I mention how much I am loving this??? I REALLY AM!

Monday, November 8, 2010

The post with no title

I figure it has been nearly a week since my last blog, so it must be time to write another. But I am all out of ideas for what to write. So this is going to be a little bit of this and that :-)

A few weeks ago while in the turbulent midst of my thyroid-caused-anxiety-stress-mess (I'm hoping to be at the tail end of it now...) I discovered (with the help of my wonderful counsellor) that I am at a crossroads. I know that seems pretty obvious - you don't have mid life crisis' or bouts of nervousness when things are peachy.. Anyway, part of this *crossroad* is related to my christian beliefs (should that be a capital C???) and how seriously I take it.

Sure - I love God. I try to be a good christian and do the right things. But oh my how I fail. Not that I do anything about it other then hide those discrepancies away and pretend they don't exist.

Yeh, I am sure you can see where this is going...

Eventually my brain said enough. I am back on the antiD's and seeing a lovely lady who also loves God!

Aforementioned lady has helped me see some pretty big flaws in my methods and is challenging me to change. One of them being my wanting to be a godly woman and yet I only seem to cling to Him during the really difficult times (those I'd-rather-forget-they-happened bouts of depression) and when things are fine and dandy, well - there's church on Sunday... that's surely enough?!

From this I am hoping to learn my lesson.. (I REALLY don't want to have to cover this ground again) I prayed for inspiration for where to open my Bible and woke in the middle of that night with a need to read the Gospel of John. That was a couple of weeks ago now and I've been very slowly plodding my way through it. I don't want to miss anything.


I've really been enjoying it! I'm already excited to see where I am supposed to read next. Initially I was expecting some lightening bolt moment of epiphany to come from reading the Bible (and then I'd be healed) but the more I read, the more I am realising that just the act of reading my Bible and being open to the Holy Spirit is enough.

I wont say that I'm out of the woods completely in regards to my anxiety, but I am a whole lot closer than I was. And I really don't want to go back to being that person anyway - I am learning to love change and the exciting journey God is taking me on!

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Skinny me...

In response to Swift Jan's blog about being skinny (by the way, I think you are beautiful just the way you are!) I wanted to add my own spin.

I am skinny.

I have always been skinny.

Rebecca is skinny.

Except I am starting to put on weight.

Who am I if I am not skinny anymore? That is always who I've been.. I am finding it incredibly difficult to reconcile *who I am* outside that mould.

Yes, I know that beauty is from the inside. I agree with all of that. Still, I don't know how to translate that back to me.

I guess it is just a huge dose of vanity...

I'd just like to add that I think it is sad that we can see others are beautiful, but we just don't believe it ourselves. It is easier to discredit our husbands and God's opinion of us, because the world says otherwise.

I think it is a daily and sometimes hourly CHOICE to believe we are beautiful.

Still, that doesn't help when I'm trying to squeeze into my jeans.

Monday, November 1, 2010

I just love this song right now

If you are like me and watch more sbs then other channels, you'd have heard this song advertising Mad Men (a series which I am yet to watch but I REALLY want to).

Anywho, I just like this song.

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Confessions from the heart

I often wonder how people really are when you ask them and they reply *fine* or *not too bad* or *good thanks*.

I often wonder how they really are. But I guess it isn't politically correct - or perhaps a bit awkward to answer *a little bit crappy actually* or *to be honest I'm feeling sad / angry / frustrated / etc*.

Sure, I appreciate that the checkout chick isn't interested in deep confessions from your soul, but why do we hide it from our friends and family?

I for one am a big culprit of this.

Is it being heroic? Making yourself the matyr? Are we afraid that we'll scare people off with our real self?

But is this pretense a good thing?

I think not. I wish people would ask me *how are you REALLY doing?* and expect and honest and raw answer. Sometimes it may be that I'm doing ok. Othertimes I may burst in to tears. But you know what? It's not that I want someone to fix the way I feel, but rather to feel safe and cared for enough to get these feelings and emotions out. Just to listen. Give a hug. Tell me it's going to be okay. That is all.

Tuesday, October 19, 2010

Handmade Living Book

Earlier this year I was presented with the opportunity to advertise Scurrette in something called Handmade Living.  I had no idea what it was, but the thought of being printed in an actual book was pretty exciting! So I took the plunge so to speak, and paid the dollars and sent one of my items off to play the star.

It's just about time for the book to be released and I am quite excited to get my hands on my very own copy!